NOVAE                                                                             2011

 

  

Eighth of June

Days leading to my birthday

Are days I soon wish to forget

Introspection kicks in

And I look back at my achievements

Or lack thereof

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It is strange that a stranger

Can tell of my deep-rooted unhappiness

At first glance

Perhaps it is just mere bitterness

The yearning for normality


That which it is mistaken for


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How can I regain some semblance of inner peace

When I look into the mirror and see my true self


Surrounded by possessions that gleam like gold


My heart weighs heavy and my voice shivers


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I am surrounded by greatness and success


And yet I choose to be a recluse


And hide where time has no resonance


Alas, time is no longer on my side.







Death So Sudden


He imagines the noose


While tying the knot


Will it hold his weight


-


The loaded gun


Gleams in the sunlight


One bullet remains


-


He fills the bath with


Warm water and steam


Rises like a fine mist


-


He takes a step forward


And enjoys the view


At last he is fearless.







Twenty-Nine


Years to realize that material grandeur


Has no real place in the heart


I have severed many ties


And now I must settle with myself


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Can this year be any different


Will tomorrow shine brighter


Will this heart one day open up to love


And will love welcome me home?